thinking back

so sam said i should post something up since i havent been due to exams. im really tired, and i cbs thinking....


i dont know wat it is, but it made me think,
about all our goodtimes, and everything.
i cant believe, that its all gone,
memories aside, its all lost.
looking back, i remember the good times we had,
once in the front, now in the fckn back.
remember how, ud always call urself fat,
id say hell no, wtf happened to that?
the more that i rhyme, the more i remember,
from when we first met, and now in november.
i made u laugh, and u made smile,
im thinking back, file by fckn file.

"oui oui" yes, u use to teach me french,
day after day, slowly we became good friends.
id always tell u, wat was on my mind.
think its safe to say, u were my spine.
keeping me up, everytime i need a hand,
wen nobody else would, you would understand.
u would share, ur daily experiences,
i bagged u, ud threaten me with consequences.
your favourite line, "this tuff guy."
quite confident, never told each other lies.
by time, we got closer and closer,
thats why in the end, we're further from each other.

i truly apologise, for the things i've done wrong,
blame myself, it was i that broke our bond.
u were innocent, just another victim.
im sorry, i really didnt mean it.
never intended to ever bring u pain,
now my heart sinks, everytime i hear ur name.
there are somethings, id rather not remember,
how i had an accident, arrived an hour later.
floats in my mind, the thought how i called u,
u rejected my calls, turned off ur phone too.
few days after, we finally got to talk,
went outside, for a little walk.
told u everything, all the truth.
thought afterwards, wed both be cool.

so i was wrong, no we werent,
u told me, u were deeply hurt.
so we didnt talk for quite sometime,
said u needed, to get me off ur mind.
after that, we talked maybe once or twice,
it was never the same, never felt right.
we couldnt go back, the way we use to be.
i hate myself, it was all cos of me.
i dont even know why, i keep causing u trouble,
my minds all fcked up, tangled in cables.
maybe i just miss the frend, that was always there,
or cos i feel guilty, cos i brought u tears.
but, thinking back, theres alot of things id change,
then again, our good times, that'll always stay the same.


-somethings are hard to let go, its always in ur mind. it sucks for me too. thinking back, brought me smiles and frowns. sorry.

interval

and im changing my perspective,

im set on changing the way i live,

and although you're a big part of my life,

on somethin else, i gotta set my eye,

its part of something much larger,

but feelings for you, i'll always harbour,

if you ever decide, to change your mind,

i'll still be right here, for you to find,

seeing you the other day,

made me realise

im not ready to walk through this archway,

im probably not worth the trouble anyway,

you could do better than me anyday,

even though i'll be on hiatus,

call me, and i'll be there in an instant,

but right now, im useless,

nothing more than worthless.

aphotic.

mate, i'm lost
i feel like anytime now, im going to see jeff probst,
it feels like a jungle, and im being attacked,
from all angles, by assassins dressed in black,
being hit with the force of a thousand humpbacks,
unable to defend, cause all they do is backstab,
find my weakspot, and exploit it,
but cheating, they refuse to admit,
even though these bandits know its not legit,
walking around in circles,
walking with the pace of a turtle,
no sign of help, even though im done seeking,
and the pain is still ever increasing,
this jungle of pain is never ending,
hopefully the exit, im nearing,
so i can find you,
and finally end my suffering.

change

Dedicated to a frend :(

sometimes, u dont realise, wats realy going on,
u dont see it at first, until it is gone.
u think it will be here, and never change,
u turn ur back, already not the same.
when, will people, start to see,
maybe, its how, its suppose to be,
maybe, this, could just be fate,
everything has its expiry date.
yes, ill miss, wat we had,
through thick and thin, happy and the sad.
always remember, how u made me smile,
how u lined me up, tile by tile.
u showed me, what love really means,
it all seemed, like a dream.
i cant believe, how lucky i was,
to have somebody, that i love and trust.
but, i guess, things began to fade,
our love fell apart, braid by braid.
i need to finally, face the truth,
that i cant always, be ur dude.
baby, you i will never forget,
u will always have a spot, in my chest.

- i guess i must agree in this case, that theres no forever in reality, but make everything worthwhile as it lasts. have no regrets. goodluck man.

treble

you are my escape from the cruel harsh reality,
you are the soul that fills my cavity,
you are what keeps me calm,
you are what keeps me from doing harm,
you are that shoulder to cry on,
you are the arms that hold strong,
you are what keeps me entertained,
you are the outlet for feelings strained,
you are unable to be abstained,
you are the strong faith, never waned,
you are the chains that keep me grounded
you are what nurses me when im lovesick,
you are that amazing friendship, music.

playlist

yeah hi.

something different right

not my usual stuff

showing a side that ain't so rough

maybe you'll like my soft side

so come along for the ride

new playlist!! :D

alright so for this im noy going to rhyme cos i really cbs.
im very tired today :(
sorry.

but enjoy MY new playlisttt

:)

random something :S

noticed, its been a while since my last post.
my reply to her, was last thing that i wrote.
new term, school starts, 4th of october,
homework due early, sacs came quicker.
methods sac, harder than i thought,
forgot everything, that i was once taught.
piss me off, cos i studied hard,
whoever wrote that sac, fckn retard.
think i got 60, or even less,
sinking feeling in my chest.
hope i do well, so i can do 3/4.
feel so tired, like i came back from war.
going to take a rest, on msn.
fck around some more, once again. =="

stars, please.

individuality, thats what sets you apart,

thats why you have a place in my heart,

you're special, one of a kind,

to the other girls, im blind,

flaws you say, i see nothing of,

if you fall, i'll be your rock,

time for you, is precious i understand,

but don't worry, i'll be here always, like a doorman,

any troubles, i'll be the solution,

to my dark world, you did brighten,

what we have is like a puzzle,

maybe im bein a lil bit too wishful,

but wishin over the summer,

we'll pick up that final puzzle piece together.

switch

switched it up with the golden ages shit
when hip hop was making the best hits
hopefully you can take a lil somethin
and discover where hip hop was simply amazin
lyricism at its peak
but now its something of an antique
sit back, relax and enjoy
the 80's 90's hip hop joy

RE: < 3

hi, i miss you heaps too,
the thing i wish i knew, how to do.
is to fly, to get to you.

i make u smile, u make me laugh.
ur a part of me, my other half.

u like my cuddles, i like ur hugs,
when my hands are cold, u were my glove.
holding on tight, yet soft and gentle,
to my love, ur fundamental.

u like how i whisper, cos i dont want to get caught,
cos if loving you was a crime, they'd take me to court.
now alot of ppl say ur abit too short,
i say ur compact, mobile, easy to transport.
if ur in a mess, tell me, file a report.
ill be right there, ill be ur "Child Support". (ahahahahaah)

u say its cute, when i tell u to come back,
cos id be sad, in pitch black, if its ur love that i lack.

u love tuesdays, i do too.
i look forward to them, cos it means Me and You.

if u like my text messages to you, randomly,
how do u like my love sent to you, regularly.

i love webcamming you too, and ur smiles.
just to tell u 11.11, id walk 100 miles.

a few train stations further, is nothing to me.
to see u safe, id walk on broken glass, bare knees.

i love too many things about you, too much to post,
my love for you, stretches from coast to coast,
and this last line, from anthony hou,
swanli chew, i love you the most. <3

- that was just a reply to her blog post :))) and i decided to put it in a rhyme cos i was bored :P.

settle

looking back i realized i acted a bit harsh.
and i guess im a bit sorry,
if that wasn't what you were trying to imply,
but just to let you know, i could've been your best,
treated you right, let you rest on my chest,
loved you for real, if you'd given me a chance,
think about it perchance, we could've had a real romance,
but it looks like i won't be your guy,
so hopefully its feelings goodbye..

fuck it, fuck you

DONT GET TO EXCITED!! its not about me once again, i wanted to post, but then wanted to keep the topic going, so this is ON SAMS line AGAIN :D

what to do next, was still to be decided,
u already left, we already divided.
didnt give me, a chance to do right,
u called it quits, before the fight.
i didnt even get, to explain,
u set urself free, from my chains.
cant believe, expected u to be kind,
at least be there, until i made up my mind.
u turned around, and left me in the dark,
stranded, girl u broke my heart.
u ignored everything i had to say,
"wait gtg, talk another day."
never thought about me, u were selfish,
u broke my heart, broke our frendship,
my turn to move on, abandon ship.
now i say, "heres our glorious finish."
fuck wat we had, doesnt matter anymore,
fuck u bitch, get outta my door.
u mean nothing now, nor do us.
u were a burden, another fuss
i was always there, always ur dude,
now im leaving, fuck it, fuck you.

-well im glad to see sam has decided to just throw it all out. i hope this encourages him to be abit more clean, leave nothing left. feel better soon bro :)

struggle

when i first met you, you were really nice and bubbly
and you would laugh, whenever i had a go at bein funny
i thought to myself, man this chick pretty cool
but i didn't know that i was bein a fool.
as i got closer to you, i saw people just fallin away from you
and i just thought that they didn't have the glue
that i thought that we had, that held us together as friends
and i didn't know why you couldn't make amends
but now i see the reason why, cause i felt it first hand
because you built our house of friendship on the sand,
you take us for granted,
but you're actually blessed
you can't see that the people you're throwing away
would give up their lives when it comes to doomsday
for you, and you act like we're disposable
because what we were, you think we're plentiful
i was there for you, when you lost mates
i was there for you, when you were frustrated
i was there for you, when you were in a dead state
but all you did for me was downplay
you didn't care about my feelings
and you treated me like shit
and you never ever counted your blessings
let me tell you this, you'll never find anyone like me
who cared for you, loved you,
and protected you like you were my priority
we used to be close, just like eskimos
but now our friendship is dead, just like the pharaohs
never thought it'd come to this
always thought we'd be close to the end
but now its finished
no friendship to which we can attend
nothing left, in my memory just a fragment.
thats it, friendship fin.

NEW PLAYLISTTT

new playlist, this week is my turn,
another week, for MY music to burn.
rap plus rnb, equals my list,
my music hits hard, like my fist.
stick out ur ears and listen close,
here comes another addictive dose.

- hope u enjoy my playlist update this week :D

falling

theres no longer a floor under my feet
my body no longer has any heat
i look around, and all i see is blackness
i try to breathe, but my lungs are airless
in this blindness, nothing but blankness and bleakness
no feeling in my chest, no beating heart
please come back, i need you, im fading fast
as im fallin through this never-ending shaft
catch me, before i hit the ground
before the ship im sailin runs aground
all i can really do, is cry out
and hope you don't take a different route...

tell her?

just to clear this out!! this isnt about me. its more so just me wanting to post something and contribute to this so yeah, but then i wanted to relate this to something, and as u can probably tell, my FELLOW TEAMMATE sam song-er is in some sorta dilema righttt?? so YEAH! :)

so i always thought, we were tight,
you're in darkness, id be your light.
only recently, did i feel the change,
when i closed my eyes, id see your name.
i was important to you, as you were to me,
how could i be so wrong, couldnt see,
i wasnt even on your list,
everywhere i go, you were the one that i missed.
now im hurting, pain in my chest,
should i tell you? should i confess?
it hurts me, to see you dont know,
wats really going on, behind the show.
"i love her smile, i love her hair"
i want to tell her, "i really care"
"i love how she grabs my arm, wen we're walking"
my heart beat races, when we're talking.
"i love the way she laughs" so happily,
the one i want and need, i guarantee.
"everytime i see her name pop up"
"my hear stops" an angel from above.
its an obvious fact, that i love you.
question of the day, but do you too?

- those lines in speech marks are sam's ACTUAL quotes. i personally think he should tell her anyways. get it off his chest and outta his system.

crumbling.

fallin under my own weight
body fillin up with hate
we ain't talked in a day or two
but to me it feels like two weeks too
im missing you like a baby misses its mum
and slowly this is what i have become
a mean creature, filled with hate and spite
i stay up til theres no more moonlight
thinking about whether the spark we don't even have, would ever ignite
deep within myself, theres a vicious dogfight
and i wish that to me, you would be skintight
but to you, i'm dimmer than a night-light
and to me, you're definite, but to you, i'm finite
so i guess to us, it's goodnight.

A.S.K vs L.C

Anthony&Samsong vs Latitia&Cindee

alright so we were pretty bored on msn, i was talking to latitty, and realised she has been talking me up about "NEVER" losing to us.
so we randomly jumped into a battle on msn. we took turns each person on a team.
it wen in order of Sam, Latitia, Anthony, Cindee the cycle keeps going.
heres how it went. who do YOU think won?
( ITS ABIT LONG BUT WORTH READING )

SAMSONG:
bitch, posin liek a girl
you even bought a set of pearls
but in different places you got misshapes
and you really you're from the planet of the apes

LATITIA:
mate that barely made no sense,
go suicide over a rail fence.
stop now at your expense,
you have no good experience.
you think im from the planet of the apes?
go suckle on anthonys litle grapes.

ANTHONY:
brace urselves, here comes the game.
i bring to u, brutality and pain.
little grapes, not wat ur mum said,
she had a closer look, up close with her "HEAD"
u picked a new partner, cindee the loser,
shouldve got an ape from ur planet, wouldve been better.
shes weak and brittle just like you,
reaching our level, something u will NEVER do

CINDEE:
you calling me a loser? what a bloody poser,
calling me weak? your just a freak
you know we're gonna win, so just suck it up u piece of tin,
we'll rape ur ass in this game, so why dont u just refrian.
and just like a duck, you guys suck

SAMSONG:
i don't know if you know biology, but ducks can't suck
'cause they don't have lips, you're just dumbstruck
you can't rhyme, why don't you go look at the dictionary at halftime
clearly your stupidity is a hinderance
while we rhyme with pure brilliance
with our immense intelligence
but ya'll ain't nothin but a nuisance
so just keep your distance
or you'll be chopped up in an instance
while we come up with rhymes like a science
like phosphorus and oxygen
we'll be blowin up like an explosion

LATITIA:
cindee soo is still tame, being new to this very game,
so cut her some slack cause hey, she don't want to cause you too much pain with her wild flameeeeeee,
your level of expetise in rhyming is soooooo sooo very low,
unreachable as it is just beyond below!
you live off each others yellow snow,
sometimes even eat each others brown dough...
yuck... what the fuck.
now whos the one thats dumbstruck.
we don't need to rhyme wih intelligence,
as its evident you have no resilience.
the way we rhyme is easy. casual and breezy,
i bet you must be feeling quesy.
don't flater yourselves
your brains are smaller than those of which are in elves.

ANTHONY:
her wild flame? man thats lame, she cant even spell her name, wat a act of shame.
its spelt with a "y" not two "ee"s,
Double "e"s, u wish!! more like half of a quarter of some little "b"s
yellow snow, brown dough,
uve got a sick mind, u mofo.
u rhyme easy, casual and breezy,
it feels like that, cos ur rhymes are SLEEZY AND LAZY.
its sad to see, two birds trying to swim.
ur efforts are frowned upon, ur future in this game is dim.
we're on top of this tower, ur at the bottom.
we're batman, ur just a sidekick, ROBIN.
u two rhyme like 5th graders with a concussion,
while we're killing it, u two still in a class discussion,
about how much it sucks, to get beaten,
"wen battling anthony and sam, we got EATEN!"


(AT THIS POINT SAM HAD TO SHOWER SO I HAD TO REBUTTAL FOR HIM)

CINDEE:
excuse me mayte, this must b e fate
i am not lame, in fact i can spell my own name.
its caled being unique, u old antique
why are you talking about yellow snow and brown dough?
have u been eating something from teletubbie p-oh?
your rhymes are not much better then mine,
your just upset cause you didnt expect
us to be better at this matter,
puhlease miss, dont u diss
all we did was sit here and chill,
you better watch out cause our gang lives in boxhill
i think u better back out now, before its too late
cause we gonna win this u now thats fate,
so just shut up, you losing fat aunts

ANTHONY (for sam)
are you blind or just cannot read?
she said yellow snow and brown dough, scroll up if u need.
ur gang in boxhill? how many is in ur crew?
ill stand up and applaud if u can name even two.
so we're the losing fat aunts?
ur so fat, planets revolve around u like the sun.
why do u two keep throwing weak lines?
is it cos u cant think or are u just a retard with a twisted spine?
ur rhymes are sad, miserable and pathetic,
wen im done with u two, call the medic.
i already booked u two a room in the hospital,
we're on a rampage, fkn unstoppable.
the back of ur head has a date with my baseball bat,
"here have some flowers, some wine..." -BAM- SMACK- CRACK!!

(now sam just came back from shower, and cindee said "i got this teaash." so she answered this one for latitia)

CINDEE:
sorry i dont understand people who talk like frogs,
maybe you would like to eat my dog,
yes we do have a gang in boxhill
and we have a gang in springvale too
go to springvale mate get 2 dollar bread
watch what u say mate
i'll use the cowboy move
don't walk away or i get gun shoot you'
you look at me like u wanna start some shiet
bring it on mate i wanna hit
shut up u cant even speek
all u speek is the broken english
you booked a room, in a hospital?
dont you think thats a bit practical,
if i were you i'd book a hotel for 2
and then who knows what happens next.


so that concludes tonights battle as it struck 12am.
well they want to continue tmr for ROUND 2.
so....who won round 1?

weak.

i'm stuck here in this distraught state,
i always thought that it could be fate,
but it seems that you ain't thinkin along the same straight,
you don't even know that i feel this way,
and that you already threw my heart away,
lost, not knowing what to do,
and this is the exact opposite of a coup,
scared, to tell you how i really feel,
but if i do, im afraid i might keel,
'cause you probably don't feel the same,
even though you keep my heart tamed,
and against you, there'll be no hatin',
just know that i'll be here, always waitin'

playlist.

playlist change
whole different range
of tracks, whole new style
by samsong, had to compile
to keep things fresh, clean slate
don't like it? get fucked mate.

back, let me unload.

i'm sam song, and yeah im back.
back from camp that was off the beaten track
it wasn't the greatest time, but it did have its benefits
it did give me a bit of a work out, and time to think about life's little bits
a like many times, there's a 'she' involved
but i won't put her name down, cause our friendship might dissolve.
now this 'she' is a great girl
and she ain't nothin less than a pearl
but the problem is, i'm head over heels
and if i tell her, then there might be some ordeal
and so my feelings true, i conceal
even though, when i see her, my heart appeals
and to have her tell me the same, would be unreal
though everytime i think, doubt appears
a shield appears on my emotional frontier
i should probably grow a pair, and tell her when she near
and make my feelings clear
but for now i'll leave things untouched
until next time, peace and hope that my problems aren't as much.

samsong on camp

sam song, where the fuck are u?
get back to melbourne, u fckn jew.
where the fck did u go? dont think u told me,
or maybe u did, i apologise for my lack of memory.
well i dont really care, jsut get back,
im lonely on this blog, alone on the tracks.
i think maybe ud come back this friday,
write about camp, wanna hear what u say.
im just so bored, come back soon,
teammates, together like paper and glue.

- where are u man? im lonely on this bloggggggg

acting

both acting normal, like nothings wrong,
its obvious, its way to strong.
i never saw, this day coming,
never crawled, but now im running.
on the surface things are fine,
magnify, and ull see the signs.
symptoms, of an incurable disease,
heart pumping, on its last few beats.
euthanasia, die with less pain,
tears will flow, either way.
cherish what we have left, continue acting,
"what a wonderful day! :)" when it is raining.
you know, im pretending we're okay.
i know, ur doing exactly the same.

- things are falling apart slowly, all we can do is act like things are fine. if we dont, things will just tumble.

beginning of the end?

so here we stand, beginning of the end.
nobody knows, nobody understands.
in our mind thoughts unfold,
things were warm, now they're cold.
how did this happen, nobody knows,
waiting now, for the final blow.
time flies, things change,
frozen cold in shooting range.
will things recover, or wither away,
question in my mind, every night and day.


- what goes up must fall down right?

startin off.

welcome to the blog of the A.S.K
the asian scene kings yeah that's the way
higher than the rest of ya'll
step to us, we're not afraid to brawl
we're so hot, when you get close you need to hydrate
get any closer and you'll probably disintergrate
talk smack and you'll become a deadweight
around the corner, for you we'll be await
thats it for this verse, hope you'll get to know us
be nice and we'll be able to avoid a crisis.