thinking back

so sam said i should post something up since i havent been due to exams. im really tired, and i cbs thinking....


i dont know wat it is, but it made me think,
about all our goodtimes, and everything.
i cant believe, that its all gone,
memories aside, its all lost.
looking back, i remember the good times we had,
once in the front, now in the fckn back.
remember how, ud always call urself fat,
id say hell no, wtf happened to that?
the more that i rhyme, the more i remember,
from when we first met, and now in november.
i made u laugh, and u made smile,
im thinking back, file by fckn file.

"oui oui" yes, u use to teach me french,
day after day, slowly we became good friends.
id always tell u, wat was on my mind.
think its safe to say, u were my spine.
keeping me up, everytime i need a hand,
wen nobody else would, you would understand.
u would share, ur daily experiences,
i bagged u, ud threaten me with consequences.
your favourite line, "this tuff guy."
quite confident, never told each other lies.
by time, we got closer and closer,
thats why in the end, we're further from each other.

i truly apologise, for the things i've done wrong,
blame myself, it was i that broke our bond.
u were innocent, just another victim.
im sorry, i really didnt mean it.
never intended to ever bring u pain,
now my heart sinks, everytime i hear ur name.
there are somethings, id rather not remember,
how i had an accident, arrived an hour later.
floats in my mind, the thought how i called u,
u rejected my calls, turned off ur phone too.
few days after, we finally got to talk,
went outside, for a little walk.
told u everything, all the truth.
thought afterwards, wed both be cool.

so i was wrong, no we werent,
u told me, u were deeply hurt.
so we didnt talk for quite sometime,
said u needed, to get me off ur mind.
after that, we talked maybe once or twice,
it was never the same, never felt right.
we couldnt go back, the way we use to be.
i hate myself, it was all cos of me.
i dont even know why, i keep causing u trouble,
my minds all fcked up, tangled in cables.
maybe i just miss the frend, that was always there,
or cos i feel guilty, cos i brought u tears.
but, thinking back, theres alot of things id change,
then again, our good times, that'll always stay the same.


-somethings are hard to let go, its always in ur mind. it sucks for me too. thinking back, brought me smiles and frowns. sorry.

interval

and im changing my perspective,

im set on changing the way i live,

and although you're a big part of my life,

on somethin else, i gotta set my eye,

its part of something much larger,

but feelings for you, i'll always harbour,

if you ever decide, to change your mind,

i'll still be right here, for you to find,

seeing you the other day,

made me realise

im not ready to walk through this archway,

im probably not worth the trouble anyway,

you could do better than me anyday,

even though i'll be on hiatus,

call me, and i'll be there in an instant,

but right now, im useless,

nothing more than worthless.

aphotic.

mate, i'm lost
i feel like anytime now, im going to see jeff probst,
it feels like a jungle, and im being attacked,
from all angles, by assassins dressed in black,
being hit with the force of a thousand humpbacks,
unable to defend, cause all they do is backstab,
find my weakspot, and exploit it,
but cheating, they refuse to admit,
even though these bandits know its not legit,
walking around in circles,
walking with the pace of a turtle,
no sign of help, even though im done seeking,
and the pain is still ever increasing,
this jungle of pain is never ending,
hopefully the exit, im nearing,
so i can find you,
and finally end my suffering.

change

Dedicated to a frend :(

sometimes, u dont realise, wats realy going on,
u dont see it at first, until it is gone.
u think it will be here, and never change,
u turn ur back, already not the same.
when, will people, start to see,
maybe, its how, its suppose to be,
maybe, this, could just be fate,
everything has its expiry date.
yes, ill miss, wat we had,
through thick and thin, happy and the sad.
always remember, how u made me smile,
how u lined me up, tile by tile.
u showed me, what love really means,
it all seemed, like a dream.
i cant believe, how lucky i was,
to have somebody, that i love and trust.
but, i guess, things began to fade,
our love fell apart, braid by braid.
i need to finally, face the truth,
that i cant always, be ur dude.
baby, you i will never forget,
u will always have a spot, in my chest.

- i guess i must agree in this case, that theres no forever in reality, but make everything worthwhile as it lasts. have no regrets. goodluck man.

treble

you are my escape from the cruel harsh reality,
you are the soul that fills my cavity,
you are what keeps me calm,
you are what keeps me from doing harm,
you are that shoulder to cry on,
you are the arms that hold strong,
you are what keeps me entertained,
you are the outlet for feelings strained,
you are unable to be abstained,
you are the strong faith, never waned,
you are the chains that keep me grounded
you are what nurses me when im lovesick,
you are that amazing friendship, music.

playlist

yeah hi.

something different right

not my usual stuff

showing a side that ain't so rough

maybe you'll like my soft side

so come along for the ride

new playlist!! :D

alright so for this im noy going to rhyme cos i really cbs.
im very tired today :(
sorry.

but enjoy MY new playlisttt

:)